I have a confession to make. This blog is loosely supposed to be about the experience of depression, yet when I am depressed I just haven’t got the energy to write, and when I am not, I am too busy catching up on all the things I failed to do when depressed, and I don’t want to think about the preceding depression let alone blog about it.
Which is a roundabout way of saying I have been bumping along the bottom for the last – oh, at least several weeks – and haven’t blogged about it. Suffice it to say that the mostly grey skies precisely reflect my average mood.
And I am about to sign a contract for a new book, which should be a cause for rejoicing, but all I can think about is that I have to somehow write the damn thing before next January.
Being at church often helps, and yesterday’s service had a number of things in it that spoke to me, but I am still struggling hard to make myself do all the things that need doing today. The fact that I have now re-read the official report into SEN at Genius Brat’s school, and that it addresses everything but the core issue of extreme understaffing, is not encouraging (of course I know that the reason for this is that the head got in a load of agency Teaching Assistants during the reviewers’ visit and sacked them all as soon as the inspectors had gone). And we have a meeting tonight at which I have to take minutes, and it is bound to be complex and my arm aches even thinking about it. I just hope the group can cut to the chase and create a strong response to the report.

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